"What about the change, what about the difference?"

Today turned out to be more interesting than I thought it would be.

I finished my second day of work... 8 hours, and pretty much went right home for a quick dinner and headed over to the monthly KIT (Keep in Touch) that the Bible study I help out at during the school year does to keep people a little involved during the summer (www.littletonteencbs.org) .

It began normally, just talking with a few of the people I knew and having some ice-cream. We sang some worship songs, which was nice, since I hadn't really had the opportunity for awhile. Well, we sing at church, but not the songs I sang tonight. I was expecting the speaker for the night to be good as usual, but I came away desiring a stronger walk with God.

I feel proud of myself in a way. I got a computer game in the mail, which I have been pretty anxious to play for about a week. But I decided to not even get on my computer tonight, but instead sit down and read the Bible for awhile and pray. This is really remarkable to me. Usually one of the first things I would do when I come home would be to get on my computer, but I didn't for awhile tonight.

Of course, part of why I decided to wait on installing my game is because I have work tomorrow, and I know it would be easy for me to get lost in the game and not be awake tomorrow which would be bad. But even then, even if I wasn't going to play my game, I didn't get on my computer. That is impressive enough in itself.

It felt good to read the Bible too. God definetly gave me a few little revelations as I read. Those little aha moments when I get something new out of something I have probably read a few times before. It actually seems strange to be here typing this out on my computer. I actually feel somewhat anxious about getting off, if only to spend a little more time with God before I fall asleep.

I still have the little temptations to stay on the computer, to talk to my friends, listen to music... do any of the many various things I do on my computer. But right now they don't seem that interesting.

With that in mind, I think I'm going to end here for now.

Goodnight

~ Daniel

Phew...

Well, things got resolved a little bit.

I went ahead and scheduled a payment for what I owed. I called the customer service again, and the lady I talked to cut the late fee in half, so thats a relief.

I asked my mom for advice, she was really helpful.... both in giving me advice on what to do, and giving me a chance to vent, and things like that. I love my mom :)

I wasn't as careful as I usually am when I scheduled that last payment, I'm going to be sure to be more watchful in the future. I don't want anything else like this to happen again if I can prevent it.

Until next time...

~ Daniel

Grrr....

What a day...

I schedule my credit card payments through their online service. Guess what, for whatever reason, it didn't get confirmed or something, so now I had to pay a 30$ late fee, plus whatever increases they tacked on.... GRRRR. I called the customer service about it, but there is nothing they can do. I'm frustrated about it... First the cell phone earlier... ugh.

I'm just glad I'm getting a job, but I have lost a lot of money that I would rather have spent on other things. This is life I guess.

Oh well, I guess it is good that I checked. The reason why I checked in the first place is to make sure my payment for some textbooks went through. Blah...

There isn't really anything I can do except take it... but things like this still bug me.

~ Daniel

There and Back again

Yay! I have internet on my computer again. Our old ISP wasn't working with us very well (they didn't like us having more than one computer get online with one account). Our new ISP is part of our phone company, and they don't mind if we use more than one computer to get online. wOOt!!

I will be going back to college in about four weeks, but my mom will be able to check her email without going down to my dad's computer, which is good for her. And until I go off to college again, I get to enjoy having a full connection again.

Of course, I'm going to start working on monday, so I can't take advantage of it too much. I'm glad I'm going to be working though. I will be helping at the school store at my college, since it is going to get really busy for them as it gets closer to school, and people need their books and things like that. It is going to keep me pretty busy, but it is going to be good money and experience, so I'm not exactly complaining. :)

Well, this is all for now.

~ Daniel

And So it Begins...

Well, I'm not sure if I have much to say to start out with. I do have plenty of things I could talk about, but I don't really feel like going into any of them right now.

I have plenty of things going through my mind as I sit here typing. I wish I could get my thoughts more focused on God... where they belong. But, I have so much going on that it isn't easy. I know I need to give up everything to God, but it is difficult for me to do that. I know with everything going on, that it's going to work out in the end, but there are still decisions that I'm going to have to make, and it's hard for me to give up the rest until I need to make those decisions.

Even then, only so much of the situation is in my control, other people have decisions that they need to make. Right now, everything seems to be stuck in a standstill, with the whole situation degrading day by day. Part of me just wants to try and wait it out, and keep from having to make a difficult decision. Part of me feels like, I'm going to have to take the first step if anything is going to change. But I don't know how I should choose. If I did, maybe this would be easier.

Knowing everything will be alright doesn't seem that comforting when I'm in the midst of everything.

Until next time...

God Bless,

Daniel